Chiron in the 12th House
With Chiron in the 12th house, you’re your own hidden enemy. You may ruin yourself before others do. You’ve mastered the art of undoing yourself in solitude, with wisdom. You may feel guilty about enjoying life, as if happiness was a crime you shouldn’t commit it.
Many people with this placement seek comfort in drugs, alcohol, or other addictive substances to escape emotional pain. You may think these substances heal you, but they deeply wound you.
Your tendency to run away to the fantasy world can lower your self-esteem and willpower. You may experience a loss of identity, where you feel disconnected from who you truly are.
Misfortune could happen that makes you lose faith in God or your higher self. You might have been in prisons, hospitals, or rehab centers to pay off your karmic debts.
Indeed, the 12th house Chiron’s wounds are often spiritual by nature. Your sufferings come directly from your misdeeds. You may experience events or diseases you “just can’t explain”. For example, you may hear inexplicable noises inside your head.
Your subconscious mind often replays your fears, dreams, and attachments from previous incarnations. You tend to cling to your old wounds while what you should do is let go. You may believe the scar is part of who you are, so you don’t want to get rid of it. Hence, you may feel wrong, a strong sense of self-betrayal, whenever you do the right things.
But here’s your hidden power: you’re the debt collector of your soul, and also, its forgiver. You’re not doomed to repeat. You’re destined to release. Break cycles. Return what was never yours. Cancel contracts written in someone else’s blood. You are the living bridge between what was and what could be.
You should devote yourself to spiritual growth to truly heal. Your spiritual homesickness happens for a reason—a persistent sense that you don’t belong to this painful world. And you’re right. Your life is meant for self-cultivation, to make significant spiritual progress, to return to where you truly came from.